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DISCLAIMER: I am a cis-appearing, though non-gender-conforming/nonbinary white woman. Both my recent and tests confirm this conclusively. The origin point of my DNA is like a Venn Diagram of whiteness. As Beavis and Butthead once said of Kip Winger’s teeth: I’m “Hwhite.”

So, this is in no way an attempt to speak to, or for, the Black experience in America. This is just my hot take on Kanye West’s recent visit to the White House, and his support for Donald Trump in general.

EDIT: And this post has also been somewhat revised, due to a discussion I had with the friend in an anecdote which was previously referenced in this post. I removed the anecdote because it appears that it resulted from a misunderstanding. Anyway:

This week, we watched Kanye West proudly proclaim his support of a racist who is who is widely known and criticized for practicing discrimination against African Americans, whose father was a Klan member whose antics drew the ire of noted antifascist musician Woody Guthrie.

Well, not at first. First, I assumed, as many have, that this is a flagrant attempt by a known narcissist and attention-seeker to seek more attention. Others have assumed, probably rightly, that if Kanye were to join the many voices speaking out against Trump, he would simply be one of a crowd. This way, he gets to stand out and be loud and noticed, the way he likes to be. For Kanye, no publicity is bad publicity.

But then I thought back on his desire to abolish the 13th Amendment of the US Constitution, the Amendment ending slavery in America, that I realized this is basically what Kanye is doing. He talks about how this is because he doesn’t want to be a part of “victimhood culture. But what he is talking about is not a rejection of “victimhood culture,” it is basically an erasure of the past. He has re-written the past in his mind to be something different.

And this is what reactionaries do. They create a fake past, a golden age. “Reject the future,” they say. “Reject progress. It’s an illusion. Go back to this imaginary fantasia with me, where I and everyone else whom I have not othered/rejected as part of the “out group” in my mind were exalted and had everything we needed.”

This imaginary fantasia relies on everyone else, even (especially) the people they have othered/rejected as part of the “out group” to either play along or disappear, or it doesn’t work. This is what is behind a great deal of the reactionary rage and resentment seen among Trump supporters in America. We aren’t playing their game right, but there is no other place they want to quit to take their ball home to.

Mother Russia beacons, seemingly a white conservative utopia – but that would mean actually having to live there, giving up the rights of Habeus Corpus, Due Process, Right to Assemble, and Free Speech that they enjoy here in America; in short, the lifestyle to which they have grown accustomed. And as they might discover, no utopia is ever really complete without a few crimes against humanity, a few mass graves along the way.

But back to Kanye, and the subject of Post-Modernism.

Post Modernism is usually presented as being impossible to simply define, but I have always interpreted one facet of it as a rejection and/or deconstruction of past values. The things our ancestors once thought of as important are no longer considered part of the crucial makeup of society, and are perhaps even utterly meaningless.

Recently, Conservative, Fascist and “Alt-Right” thinkers on Youtube and beyond have appropriated the word “Post Modern” as a shorthand alongside their other favorite phrase “Cultural Marxism” for what they see as the Left’s rejection of the “good old days”/”The Natural Order Of Things As God Himself Intended.”

Never mind the fact that the Frankfurt School, which currently occupies that same scary place under the bed in the Fascist collective consciousness as George Soros, roundly decried post-modernism as objectionable, a wrong turn in our society’s evolution.

But guys, there is nothing more post-modern than rewriting entire events of the past in our heads – say, the period of slavery in America – to be something different so that it doesn’t make us feel bad. It’s erasure. It’s repression. It’s a denial of things that actually occurred, saying that the actual historical past as it actually, objectively happened is meaningless, that the struggles and suffering of large groups of people are effectively meaningless. And it generally never works out they way we think it will when we do this.

The entire reactionary/fascist mindset relies on rewriting and re-interpreting huge chunks of the past for them to cling to, so they get to postpone the future for just a little while longer.

Meanwhile, if I could build a time machine, I’d go back to the past: to bring back 2005 Kanye so he could confront 2018 Kanye.

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This thing has been the elephant in the room long enough. I’ve made several attempts over the years to try and write this – to the point where I have several different drafts, with several different takes on it, saved to different hard drives which date as far back as 2005; all of which reflect who I was and my changing and evolving opinions of the thing at the times they were written.

In the early spring of 2015, I attempted to hash all of this back out – and then backpedaled, and just dropped it, because of the release of the movie Jupiter Ascending.

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So, uh, now people can actually comment on my mirrored entries on DW. >.< Sorry about that. I am feeling a bit better than yesterday. Oh, and I'm finally getting my DNA/genealogy test did. Current Mood:

I am getting over yet another bout of upper respiratory junk, I am on antibiotics yet again, and I feel really crappy this morning.

The company I work for pushed out a major update last month, and it, uh, hasn’t quite gone according to plan, which has added to the stress. I feel like we keep passing this junk back and forth.

I am going to finally start posting a lot more of the occult/philosophical/esoterica stuff that I used to back in the old days. It may seem a little strange to those who started following my blog(s) in the years since then. My background is primarily Chaote/Hermetic/Technopagan. Feel free to comment with any questions, and I will do my best to answer them.

Oh well, back to the salt mines!

A climate change-fueled switch away from fossil fuels means the worldwide economy will fundamentally need to change.

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So for anyone reading this blog who may not be aware, over the past year and a half I’ve been posting more regularly in my blog, numb3r_5ev3n, since Vladimir Putin assimilated LiveJournal. Most of my blog content from 2004-2017 is there. (And for those of you reading this over on DreamWidth: Hello!)

I was on Tumblr for a while, but as a Gen Xer that platform was probably never cut out for me anyway. Too many rampant memetic virii, too much noise to signal. It’s basically the opposite side of the coin of 4chan…and really, the less said about 4chan right now, the better.

Facebook is going the way of LiveJournal, by the way of Cambridge Analytica – and it was no longer cool once your 8th grade math teacher, your old youth councilor, your great-aunt, and her bridge club joined, anyway.

What bothers me is, Facebook is not so much of a communication platform as it is a dopamine hamster wheel, with algorithms intended to push you exactly where its influencers want you to go. But I feel like one could make that argument of most of the latter social media services, actually.

I deactivated my Facebook account back in March, but it’s been really hard because of how pervasive it is in everyone’s life now, and how everyone is using it to connect. Maybe I’ll continue to hold out, we’ll see.

I still have Instagram and Twitter. I’m on Discord and Slack, which remind me of the IRC days of yore. Frankly, I’m consuming way more Vlog content than anything else, recently.

Most of my time has been taken up with work and stuff. I’m trying to get back into the groove of actually writing, and writing regularly – including content which at this time is ten years or more overdue. More on that, coming soon.

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This is a test of my crossposting settings from my WordPress account to my Dreamwidth account. In the event of an actual post, you would be seeing updates on current events, hobbies, mood, etc. This is only a test.